I cant breath
i cant live
i cant eat
without taking a blade
to my wrist
wear i watch the blood ooze out
i watch and watch until it stops
wishing to rip my life away
i used to be a crossed country runner
until the day my brother died
so i take the blade
and draw on my skin
painting my pale skin with blood
taking a sigh of relief when im done cutting
its addiction now
if i dont cut i feel like
Dear Mom,You said you'd always be there But you're nowhere to be found I can't believe you left me I feel so low beneath the ground There's nothing I can do now I trusted you with all my heart But now you're gone You're the one who tore my life apart I've learned not to trust There's nothing more to say You've lost someone special You can't get back each day Now you're the one left in the dark And all of a sudden you feel my pain You expect me to take you back But you still feel you're not to blame
I can never explain the ways I've felt
Growing up without you, playing the cards I was dealt.
There were always many things I wanted to say
My dreams and new thoughts that came each day
I wish I could take back some of the skeptical things I've said
To be more respectful, listen, be positive instead.
At times I felt you were never listening to what I would say,
So I'd get angry and react in the wrong way.
I understand that it took some time
Blood pours from my mouth like rain
This agony leaving me in dismay
I wish I were dead already
To feel free without restraint
These chains are too heavy
Nothing makes sense anymore
It hasn't since you threw me to the floor
As all my spilled blood drenches me
I hear you in the distance laughing
When I try to look inside a mirror
This face isn't mine anymore
My true form is revealed in time
This illusion is for humanity
Getting ready to see friends
Go to the mirror put on makeup on
To hide my true self.
Is this what life is about?
I see my friends flirty & girly.
I try to be happy an like them,
but all I feel is alone.
No-one here to help me
I am different to my friends.
I am different, fun, happy girly
but is that me?