The light slowly fading,
i saw that familiar puddle,
so dark and black,
i looked back to my wrists,
saw that smooth cut,
so fine under the blanket of blood.
i see this everyday,
each time looking so new,
i never seem to know why though,
that little trickle of blood,
letting it fall in that puddle,
turning so dark inside.
when i am done i clean the puddle,
the rag covered in red,
i grab my arm bands,
I slit my wrists to watch them bleed
as I think of how much you mean to me
but now youíre gone and I dread
all these memories in my head.
Iím glad you canít hear the voices in my head
because they tell me to go ahead
go ahead and slit my wrists
as I think of our first kiss.
Everyone knows but they canít tell
just how much this feels like hell.
They know I love I know u donít
And Iíll still love you when she wonít.
When you feel the stress you reach for the piece of steel you have made your friend believing it is
Going to be there at the end and when you carve your flesh just so that when the blood runs you
Gain your inner peace but soon afterwards you find your mind being taken by the darkness you just
Cut from your skin then you reach for the piece of steel that seemed to understand more than
Anything or anyone ever could because it never hurt you unless you forced it because
The bleeding wont stop,
I cut too deep,
My hand is numb,
Iím falling asleep.
The pain is great,
I still canít believe,
When i needed you most,
You decided to leave.
My face is wet,
Why am i crying,
Youíre making her laugh,
While Iím here dying.
But before I leave,
I just have to say,
I love you so so much,
Youíll see you do tooÖ..
There were things you had wished for during moments in your life wishes like i wish my mom and dad were here by my side you wished for somebody to tell you that they were proud of you and that every thing was going to be alright there wasnít going to be any more yelling every thing was suppose to be peaceful but that was just a fantasy in real life everything is going and you sit there screaming in your head for help but are to scared to say it out loud so instead you relive the pain by taking the